Another day...
I live and learn.
I was asked today by a dear friend who made the comment that I am always cheery. It was said that they didn't know if it was always genuine or whether I was just faking it.
Today I can assure you I was faking it!
My answer is simple and hardly unique, what options do I have? I certainly can play the victim, I certainly can be a sad sack and bemoan the many misfortunes and calamitous events of my day, week or month, but why? Will it matter? I think not.
I said that I have some days that I would rather fade away, many days I would rather sleep in or just return to the cave (man or otherwise) and just relax, but each day i wake up and am energised even when i am extremely tired like now.
I covered a wedding on Sunday 'til midnight for some dear friends and then after transferring the images from camera to hard drive, cleared the cards and went to bed at 1am, I was up again at 6am to shower and go to the city to train a few retail store staff about the new Nikon camera which was fun, then after that was involved in some other activities then went to a launch of the Nikon 1 camera with about 120 retail staff from shops all over Sydney. Even though I was hammered, I enjoyed it, then by the time I got home which was quite late again, slept at midnight and was up by 5am to get ready for the city all over again.
Forgive me for laboriously laying out my schedule, I do so only for background to illustrate WHY I was tired and still am. That said, today was also the race that stopped a nation and certainly did so in many corners of the city of Sydney where I was walking around. I took a couple of shots of the many people chancing a flutter on a horse for the Melbourne Cup. I don't flutter on the Melbourne cup, I work hard enough for the money I get, even if its a small amount I am not fussed on on gambling.
I remember going to Atlantic City one time and I could not get rid of the coins in those machines fast enough it was such a bizarre experience. Then as if that wasnt crazy enough there was Vegas, and boy it was amazing on a whole number of levels.
But I return to where I began, I do live and learn.
I think the most I learn is about myself. I have begun to see what I am capable of, I have begun to feel clearly that I'm worthy of my own self respect, I am trying to beat myself up less and less and I am coming to appreciate the differences of opinion that surround me. I realise that I dont always have to agree with other people's views, that is their views, but I can love and appreciate the people who have differing views because I value them more than making a point and losing a friend.
There have been a couple of scenarios of late that have been somewhat jarring and quite perplexing to me over situations that I thought were on a certain path or course only to find that not only the course direction changed, but seemingly so did the guideposts and rules of the game, so to speak anyway.
I have reminded myself lately on several occasions that I am absolutely flawed in many areas of my life. I certainly wish I was better though, but my many imperfections help to keep me in perspective, I feel it also keeps me reaching and wanting to be better tomorrow than I was today.
I try not to expect perfection from others and hope that they allow the same latitude for my imperfections as well.
Lastly, I also feel that if I spread good it may come floating back to me on mythical barges ablaze with good will when i most need it, and today was such a day.
I am again grateful for this inspired song by the great Joni Mitchell. I have heard this song many times throughout my life and I think it takes on new meaning to me at different times. There has been much cloud watching, loving and living in my life and hope and pray there will be many more times.
I was asked today by a dear friend who made the comment that I am always cheery. It was said that they didn't know if it was always genuine or whether I was just faking it.
Today I can assure you I was faking it!
My answer is simple and hardly unique, what options do I have? I certainly can play the victim, I certainly can be a sad sack and bemoan the many misfortunes and calamitous events of my day, week or month, but why? Will it matter? I think not.
I said that I have some days that I would rather fade away, many days I would rather sleep in or just return to the cave (man or otherwise) and just relax, but each day i wake up and am energised even when i am extremely tired like now.
I covered a wedding on Sunday 'til midnight for some dear friends and then after transferring the images from camera to hard drive, cleared the cards and went to bed at 1am, I was up again at 6am to shower and go to the city to train a few retail store staff about the new Nikon camera which was fun, then after that was involved in some other activities then went to a launch of the Nikon 1 camera with about 120 retail staff from shops all over Sydney. Even though I was hammered, I enjoyed it, then by the time I got home which was quite late again, slept at midnight and was up by 5am to get ready for the city all over again.
Forgive me for laboriously laying out my schedule, I do so only for background to illustrate WHY I was tired and still am. That said, today was also the race that stopped a nation and certainly did so in many corners of the city of Sydney where I was walking around. I took a couple of shots of the many people chancing a flutter on a horse for the Melbourne Cup. I don't flutter on the Melbourne cup, I work hard enough for the money I get, even if its a small amount I am not fussed on on gambling.
I remember going to Atlantic City one time and I could not get rid of the coins in those machines fast enough it was such a bizarre experience. Then as if that wasnt crazy enough there was Vegas, and boy it was amazing on a whole number of levels.
But I return to where I began, I do live and learn.
I think the most I learn is about myself. I have begun to see what I am capable of, I have begun to feel clearly that I'm worthy of my own self respect, I am trying to beat myself up less and less and I am coming to appreciate the differences of opinion that surround me. I realise that I dont always have to agree with other people's views, that is their views, but I can love and appreciate the people who have differing views because I value them more than making a point and losing a friend.
There have been a couple of scenarios of late that have been somewhat jarring and quite perplexing to me over situations that I thought were on a certain path or course only to find that not only the course direction changed, but seemingly so did the guideposts and rules of the game, so to speak anyway.
I have reminded myself lately on several occasions that I am absolutely flawed in many areas of my life. I certainly wish I was better though, but my many imperfections help to keep me in perspective, I feel it also keeps me reaching and wanting to be better tomorrow than I was today.
I try not to expect perfection from others and hope that they allow the same latitude for my imperfections as well.
Lastly, I also feel that if I spread good it may come floating back to me on mythical barges ablaze with good will when i most need it, and today was such a day.
I am again grateful for this inspired song by the great Joni Mitchell. I have heard this song many times throughout my life and I think it takes on new meaning to me at different times. There has been much cloud watching, loving and living in my life and hope and pray there will be many more times.
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